Maternal instincts? I knew mine might be delayed. But, I knew I loved my husband and have always loved kids. Maybe toddlers and older, but, hey, why not give it a whirl? So, that’s just what we did.
My husband and I have successfully reached 10 weeks with our baby boy, Jack. He is awesome. He truly is. However, those women who don’t admit that the first few weeks are not always awesome are liars; you know who you are. While thinking back on the past ten weeks, a few moments stuck out to me that I felt I should share.
Amid the countless pieces of advice, pregnancy books and annoying Facebook posts of others, here are some things your doctor didn’t tell you:
1. Your baby might remind you of a lizard. An adorable, snuggly little lizard, but a lizard nonetheless. I’ll always remember the moment the nurses handed Jack to me for the first time. He flailed his arms, arched his head back and latched onto my nipple so hard it made my toes curl. It really wasn’t this magical moment you read about in the pregnancy books.
2. You will look like a swollen gummy bear. I’m not sure why it’s so popular to attempt to post a majestic photo of you and your baby weeks – or even hours – after giving birth, but women are trying this more and more. That’s wonderful if you want to put on makeup, go out in a field in a gown and hold your baby for professional photos; however, if you are like me, you will look so scary and swollen you may frighten your niece. Yep, that happened.
3. Ignore the C-section comments of others. It’s taken me a while to come to the conclusion that it is completely fine and normal I needed a C-section. I won’t list the events of my pregnancy or labor, but there was a reason for it. My husband and I trusted our doctor 100 percent. While my scar or the pain has not been ideal, our baby is here and healthy; and that is the most important thing. Everyone thinks they are experts when it comes to labor and motherhood, and people will one-up you each day. Tell them to shut-up in your mind and continue your focus on the day ahead.
4. You will hate your husband. There will be one moment, or 173 moments, in the weeks after giving birth, that you will hate your husband. But, just because they are horrible at swaddling a baby, do not consider divorce just yet. It really is a mixture of hormones and sleep deprivation that will make you crazy, and your frustration will be taken out on the man who is snoring through a nighttime feeding.
5. Beard trimming might happen in the back yard. Just when you thought you hated him, you will love him again. There was a morning while walking Jack around the house trying to get him to fall back asleep that I looked out the window and saw my husband in the backyard, shirtless and trimming his beard. He came back in and explained how he didn’t want the noise to wake up Jack. Suddenly, I remembered why I fell in love with him.
6. The thought of a penis will make you puke. Except when Channing Tatum is on the Today Show talking about Magic Mike XXL. Or when you hear the SOA theme song. No, but really, the penis is what got you into this, and you will want it far, far away for a while. I’ll just stop there with the penis talk.
7. Holy moly boob size. I’m not a large-busted woman, but whoa! I’ve breastfed and pumped in front of a few of my friends who have been utterly (get it?) shocked. True friends have said things to me like, “Those are some milky breasts!” But on a serious side note: While breastfeeding has worked for me, I think you have to find what works best for you. A lot of women are putting so much pressure on themselves to breastfeed perfectly, but if formula is the right choice, then do it. Many will disagree with this next statement, but if your baby is healthy, happy and gaining weight, that is all that matters.
8. You will cry when you try to put on normal pants. There is really nothing else to say about this except keep on moving and grooving. The weight will shed some day, or, at least I’m hoping so.
9. Accept the help of others. It is hard to ask for help sometimes. If you’re like me, I wanted to show others that I could do it all myself. However, I recently read somewhere that “it takes a village to raise a baby.” And, that couldn’t be truer. My mother, mother-in-law, sister and countless others have been so great for our new little family. I’ve learned little tricks of the trade from each of them, and Jack has spent quality time with so many people who love him.
10. So much love for something so small. No one ever prepared me for how much I would love my adorable, little, squishy lizardman. I’ll keep the cheesy rant short, but my husband and I love Jack so much. Each day, we try to show him something new whether it’s a new book, song or toy. My motto lately has been this: Life is about peace and laughter, and those are values I will continue to try to teach Jack each day.